Deep thoughts.....

Finally EXAM FEVER is officially over !!! Its holiday time... muahahahaha.... The final exam period was like hell dude !!! Slept for only a few hours everyday. Study for more than 12 hours straight was @&#%$$^&@^# !!! ( okok... i am telling lies... not till 12 hours la ok... got alot of break time during the 12 hours duration... kekeke...). Physically and mentally tired. Exhausted to the max. How was all the papers ? Emm.... tough question. Well i cant say that i did badly but i also cant claimed that i did all the papers well. However, i hope it is good enough to reach my this semester target. Hihihihi.. Whats my target? Well, that is categorized as "Soalan Cepu Emas" kekekeke.... Will inform once results its out yeah.... kekekeke

Since final is over. Its HOLIDAY time bebeh !!! I am gonna use to the max this whole week wit shopping shopping shopping !!! Muahaha... thats my hobby. A hobby is what a person do in their leisure time. And i have lots of leisure which also means i have lots of time for SHOPPING !!! Kakakaka. Went to JJ for nearly everyday now with my sis-es and mummy. I am hunting for formal clothes and also kai kai clothes of coz. Wana buy more formal clothes for the coming orientation week and not to forget for my industrail training this coming October. I wouldnt wana look like small kid to work ma right? Its really fun thinking of working life soon... but for sure i will miss the uni life and my freinds most of all.

By the way, currently i am planning for a family holiday. Any suggestions ? Papa wana go china, thats for sure. Mummy pulak anything also can. Me ? Truthfully la, me go anywhere also can as long papa and mummy happy can dy. Mei ying pulak wana go Vietnam? aPa nih? Mei Ching on the other hand... clueless... wakakaka. The thing is not about the budget, but its our holidays. I cant really find a week where mei ying and me will have holidays ( MMu holiday always clashed one la... ). Bali not bad place... but i was wondering whether papa and mummy will like it or not? susah to decide nih... China will be the best... BUT gotta plan properly first. Maybe i will wait for MATA fair first... more bargains... I thought of cruise too... it would be really nice.... ohhhhhhh i wana go for a holiday now....

I"m gonna get a NEW COMP SOON !!! Yeah bebeh.... Since the old comp really "lagging" dy , mummy said that she will sponsor it !!! LOVE U , MUMMY !!!

Alot of things happened lately. Well, a little confused with so many things keep running in my head. Its so sudden and now i gotta make a desicion. A really tough decision which i really dont know what i should do. Feel so divided and stuck in between. Life has been tough on me these several months with so many obstacles that i have to go through alone. How i wish all of these never occured. Well, there is no turning back and mistakes have been made. Thats how it is. Time passes by so fast that it is gonna be 3 years soon. A lot of events have happened in these 3 memorable years. However, i also cant deny that i have been hurt the most during these 3 years period. I have experience so many things that i know i will never ever forget it, i promise.

*As i am writing this entry, i am listening to "my valentine" by Martina Mcbride*

I have evolved to be a more mature person, thats for sure. And you know what, i actually finally know that i can actually be a "manja" type of girl too. All this while, i have been too independent (thats what all my friends around me told me) to myself. I always consider myself as a very strong, responsible and independent person. Never cross my mind that i will ever depend on someone. Until one day, i met that special someone. Then i slowly learned to trust that someone which i ended up depending on him too. Now i realize that its time for me to STAND on my own. I know i gotta push myself back to the real me. Its gonna be hard but i have to give it a try.

Up till now, i still have not decided on anything yet. Truthfully i really didnt know what else i can do to make things right coz SHIT HAPPENS. I am just a victim that need to come out with a decision but not a solution. Enough of talking crap......

OC OC OC !!! Orientation week is coming soon which means OC camp is starting soon also. My holiday ends officailly on this coming weekend as OC 2nd gathering will be held on the 5th of June which marks the day of first orientation activites. Then we will proceed to the Oc camp, registration day and finally the orientaion week. Its gonna be tiring for sure. But i know that i will really have fun... lots of fun...... fun fun fun !!!

Ok la... i wana go to bed liao... tired.. tomolo gotta go campus a while to settle stupid AA stuff and then maybe do some spring cleaning..... nite nite....