My Valentine?

Talked about the problems.

So many of it that i cant even remember when and which one?

You didnt even clarify all the problems everytime it occurs.

How can you blame me then?

Who says i didnt give you the chance to explain? I think i gave lots of time but you just never use it wisely. Maybe you underestimate me?

You never want to solve the problems when we face one. Why? Not like last time , where everytime we face any single tiny winny misunderstanding... you will take the first step to talk to me about it.

How? How do you expect me to act accordingly? I am "chilling" myself now. Acting as though nothing happen. And yeah , i am dam disappointed by myself.

Feelings? Emotions? I am speechless , "emotionless" and also "feelingless" now. Cry? I think i have enough of it. No more tears plz.... Anyway , have you ever notice whenever i cry? You were never there to console me though. You left me alone.. which i ended up sleeping while crying.

And the next day... you will just act as though " ITS A BRAND NEW DAY?"

Now, i am gonna be brave. I know that i am a strong girl now. Time will passes by quickly that i will never need to look back again , i hope.

No MORE all those romantic and sweet moments together.... I hope my choice is right this time as i have been thinking about it alot whenever i was left alone crying in the dark. From a HOPE , it turns to be want-ing "sympathy" and making me feel like a no one to you.

I didnt say that the road that i am taking now is the right one. Can you tell me that i am wrong?

Tell me... or maybe you wouldnt wana bother again.. as you always did?

Solutions? I have already taken one of the choices... as there were no explaination , no action , no hugs , nor even a good night sleep.

How i wish , we could both be as in the past, which i know that we could never turn back time. All the best time in my life ! I will never ever forget all those moments. Gonna miss everyone that you have intro to. will never forget all of them too.

You thought me to skip classes... yeah that was the first time where i actually skipped my class just to watch harry potter movie... its was worth it though....

You thought me how to be a lady. Yeah , its true. I know that i was clumsy and blurr all the time. Thanx alot for guiding me along the way.

You thought me about LIFE.

You thought me about relationships. Commitment is never an easy task. The key word " give and take" was our motto.

You changed ME. Yeap.... to a better person. I wana be the prettiest girl in your eyes. I want you to be proud of me. I wana impress you with whatever i can, maybe its just not enough?

You gave me loads of gifts.... I LOVE all of them, every single one of them brings happy and unforgettable memories we had together. I will always cherish that , i promise !

I was wrong to think that YOU were the ONE. Maybe i am still a naive girl which i dont think that i am thattttt naive. As i was typing this entry, the song "my valentine" by maritna mcbride makes me think that will miss you alot. I cant deny that. Its hard for me to let go now.... but i will try.... there is nothing else i can do now.

* No mood to study... i better grab my ass up soon and start proper studying..... midterm is coming soon and i better do well..... daddy is counting on me... WAKE UP !!! *