Future engineer ???

Sigh. For the past few weeks, i actually thought that i am a technician, and to be exact MMU technician. Wana know why ? This semester i took EPT3016( this is the subject code) which is known as mini project for my elective subject. Since then, i am dam busy with se-tu-pid lab experiments and lab reports. Truthfully i was really happy to take this subject at first, but soon after that "DOOM's DAY" happen-ing. (sorry for the broken english.. just wana show how bad it is... hahaha) On the first day, my lecturer which is also the lab supervisor explained about the subject content and also the requirements. The pressure started to built up in me. It is not an easy task as the subject consists alot of pratical stuff( which i really like) and of course there are on the spot evaluation everytime we come for the lab sessions. Its 2 times a week ( tuesday and thursday), 3 hours per session. ( normally its only 6 hours lab a week for other subjects... so add mini project lab hours.. its a total of 12 HOURS OF LAB ONLY a week). Can u imagine that? Thats not including my lecture sessions and also tutorial sessions. Really exhausted with all the work load. I really love the practical part. I really learn alot from this particular subject. Playing around with the IC' , jumpers, potentiometer,resistors,capacitor, op-amp and bla bla bla is really fun. At least i dun feel as sleepy as during the lectures. ( dont mean to sleep but i cant understand what were the lecturers talking about... there was once, i actually heard THIS-CA-CING which actually means DISCHARGING...hahahahaa..... funny? there is more....) Although i seems to have fun doing the project...... here comes the bad side of this subject.
As the subject requirements stated that there will be on the spot evaluation everytime we step into the lab. I dont really mind about that. I can say that i am not that weak in practical( thats in my opinion la) and i am willing to learn. Besides, all subjects taken was meant to be learnt. If we are so good in it, might as well we dun study right? The " ma fan" past is the report which we have to pass up every week. We are suppose to design se-tu-pid circuit and bla bla bla... and not to forget stupid simualtion,P-SPICE too. Sigh. Need to read alot to actually complete the report. Maybe other people can do it easily but i think it is not as easy as what i think it is. However, i manage to do every single report on my own which i am very proud of it. ( what to do.... have to do myself la... no one let me copy ma..hehehe..anyway its individual assesment ma...). I think i did a good job on it but of coz i cant say that the design i did was 100 % correct... hehehe.... but never mind... at least i tried my very best. Since every week me need to pass up a report on the applications that we did in the lab sessions, adding this up with the normal lab report that we suppose to have every week.... total of AT LEAST 2 lab report every week. ( plus with all the lecture and tutorial sessions somore....) There were times where my brain actually says"help help...stop using me" hahaahhahahahaahahaha...... funny.... but it is true man.... too tired.... Thus mood swing happens.
Stress, tense and also exhausted with all the work loads makes me an angry person. Mood swings are always there. And u know what,,,,, who else feel the effects? My boy friend and my sis of couz ( they are my housemates too). For the past few weeks.. "pau cha"= "BOMMMM" to my bf. I noticed that sometimes he also cant take it...in the end, he also get angry at me... really sorry bee. Not easy to control your " stressness" when your brain cant work properly( so that it can give the correct calculation ma). Even my sis actually beg me to talk to her one night... I was so frustrated at my stupid design at that time, so didnt layan her at all...the only conversation from me that night was..."yeah", "ehmmm", "ohh", "ok"....... in the end, she actually fell asleep on my bed. Haha. SORRY ok... no mood la that time. At usual times,i can talk and talk and talk non stop...
Next week, my first midterm liao.... haven start studying for it.... maybe tomolo or something... wana get some rest now... see ya....


SACRIFICIES IS ALL IT TAKES, TO HAVE A BRIGHTER FUTURE !!!